SUNDAE

Chocolate..... the mention of tht word jus makes me melt........... it's a total addiction for me.... jus cant stop myself from havin one.... n i shudn't be stopping myself..... tht's like insultin d chocolate..... i am big time addicted to various other things...... ice-cream... coffee....cream......yummmmmmmm......though they r not as sinful as chocolates.... nuthing is......................... wait a minute....... there is sumthing more sinful thn chocolates.....the thing tht gave me d idea to write abt chocolates.... n tht is LIQUOR CHOCOLATES ..... few minutes to midnight i jus had this cravin for my liquor chocolate... n d idea to blog.........
i wonder why ppl dope drink or smoke wen they can have chocolates....... i think chocolates can give thm a higher high.......... no match for my chocolates............chocolates have such a soothing effect....wen ever i am not feelin like myself or a bit low(wich is once in 10 blue moons)i jus eat a chocolate n i feel so so so much better......................... when i feel like indulgin myself.... it has to be chocolate n nothing else...............................but thn who needs a reason to eat chocolate... not me atleast................ the warmth tht one feels after eatin a chocolate is ultimate bliss.............
i love chocolate in all forms.....solid or liquid.... whether it's a chocolate bar or chocolate syrup or chocolate cake!!!!!!! i m always ready to put thm in my mouth.............and thn dark chocolate is jus it.........so damn intoxicatin................... n nothing to say abt liquor chocolates...... ummmmmmmmmmmm ........addictive man.... damn addictive.....................
"I SCREAM.... U SCREAM... WE ALL SCREAM FOR ICE-CREAM" slurrrrrp!!!!!!! nuthing better thn this on a hot day or night......... n why hot...... any season n i scream for ice-cream......
the coolness of ice-cream is jus so awesum......... the fun in lickin it... n havin it b4 it melts down.....
the idea of goin to "MAMA MIA"n choosin frm all those flavours there excites me frm d word go.............bliss.... bliss bliss........... n yes.... "MAMA MIA" wud be d choice for my mom cos it says some 90% fat free...... n she defintely wud want me to consume less fat because of d storage of fat i have....... but i never cared for tht...............................
Moonlit night.... by the bedside lookin out of d window.... with a hot n steamin cup of coffee in hand........perfect isnt it?????? i absolutely swear by coffee.......... i have never had tea........... it is coffee for me anyday............... the smell itself makes me feel so good........... the aroma of d coffee beans can beat any perfume anyday..........another perfect situation to have coffee is wen it is raining hard... n i m sittin near d window wid a cup of coffee in hand n lookin at d nature bathing..... n a book wud jus add to d perfection........
The numerous times i have been to CCD have been nuthin short of amazin............ a steamin cup of coffee or a glass of cold coffee wid cream........... n a chocolate fantasy wid cream . ice-cream n chocolate sauce..............temptin man!!!! too temptin..............tht remins me the waiters in CCD have been zapped by me so many times..... i always order fantasy wid cream..ice-cream n chocolate sauce.... d outlet waiter in d outlet i had gone to once was so taken aback at my order.... i guess he was takin a order like tht for d 1st time.......n thn after a couple of more visits to tht outlet the waiter remembers the order so well.. tht i jus have to say chcolate fantasy n he completes it for me.......
yesterday i had gone to d HAZRA outlet n d pastries were over..... i had coffee but thn cudn't resist dessert so i told d waiter to get me cream n chocolate sauce..........he was like 'whipped cream n chocolate sauce' i was like 'yes only whipped cream n chocolate sauce' oh!boy....his face had such n awesum expression..... happens happens... wen ppl come across me.... this happens.........n to top it all my aunt ordered the same for her daughters......
n if u want to enjoy havin chocolates .. ice-cream.. coffee . cream to the fullest..... dirty urself......
no no no..........i am not crazy.... i blv if like nice kids we have these things properly widout coatin our mouth or lips or spillin some or widout thm meltin in the hands .. half our enjoyment is gone.........the proper way to relish is 'DIRTY URSELF' it shud look as if we've had chocolates n ice-creams........ it's so much fun to lick the ice-cream on our lips ....... or havin some melted chocolate stuck to our fingers...
like all kids even i have this fantasy abt chocolates and ice-creams......the fantasy is like tht in 'CHARLIE N THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY'.... the ultimate book for ppl like me......... a river of chocolate.... i can anytime dip a spoon into d river n have it... or maybe swim in chocolate.........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! trees of cakes n pastries and candies tooo.... any flavour anytime...... plants of ice-cream............ can pluck vanilla...black currant....strawberry flavour wenever i want.........n thn i can pick an ice-cream n thn dip it into the chocolate river............and a fountain of coffee....it's aroma fillin up d senses.............i wish i wish i wish tht there was a chocolate factory n MR.WILLY WONKA for real..... i wud take permanent residency there!!! n i wudn't mind workin there... workin among chocolate... cream n cakes........woah!!!!!!!!!!!!
these are irresistable things n the combination of all these things in more irresistable.....
let's seeeeee.........
let's take a chocolate brownie... put a scoop of vanilla ice-cream...a scoop of butterscotch....scoop of coffee flavoured ice-cream........thn pour chocolate sauce on top it... pour it generously of course........... thn put a waffer into it.... n a cherry on top n sprinkle few nuts n coffee powder.... wat do we get...............................................................................................
a SUNDAE.....................a yummy temptin sinful SUNDAE...................
damn!!!! now tht i have written all this i so want have a sundae rite now...........but bad timing.. no probs..... tomorrow or rather today is SUNDAY... so will have SUNDAE in d mornin.....
sunday ho ya monday roz khao sundae!!!!!!!
and yeah!!!! i dont mind goin to hell for sinning so much..........

SEARCH

I wander and wander
In search of something.
I know not what that something is,
I know not if it is concrete or abstract
I know not if it is a feeling or a sentiment.
All i know is that i am in search,
In search of something that is lost.
Not finding it hurts more,
It hurts more than not finding
Something that i never had.
My search seems endless,
My nights seem sleepless.
Have not had a piece of peace
Since i lost it,
It seems as if eternity has passed
And i still havent found it.
My heart cries for it,
It howls and pines in solitude
For something that was mine,
For something i know nothing about.
Confusion fogs my road,
Desparation kills me,
My vision is blurred,
But still i wander
I wander in search.....
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ME AND MY FRIENDS!!!!

Many a times i wonder if i'll get to see the frnds i have now after 10 years.... i wonder will they know wen i die....i wonder will i knw wen they die....weird wondering...aftr all tht's my wondering!!!
this wondering was set in motion by my dad n his friends... i was jus thinkin abt their frienship all these years..... in those days there were not many schools or colleges... n most of gujaratis went to one school i.e J.J Ajmera and one college i.e Bhawanipur college... unlike us my dad had almost the same set of frnds thru out school n college life!!! n now i guess all frnds get together only once in a year... not tht thy r not frnds anymore jus tht everyone's busy cant blame thm...it took a lot of hard work in those days n even now it's hard work....wenever thy meet there bonding is amzin to watch... it seems as if thy r college goers....
even if my dad meets one of his friends while we are out or something.. thy cant stop talkin.....
BUT tht is our DAD's generation............ today the the world is more accessible......going abroad to study is so common....
today i m in contact wid my school frnds.... will i be in contact with thm after a few years... n same for my college frnds...even if i am in contact will tht bond still be the same......idiotic questions thy seem to me yet provocative........
it is said tht even if ppl are seven seas apart.. a relationship can be maintained if thy want to...........does tht mean (god forbid) if i lose contact wid a frnd it was becos i never wanted to keep in touch....i say 'BULL SHIT' why the hell wudn't i want to keep in touch wid my frnds...
quite a few of my frnds have gone out of calcutta to study... i m still in touch wid thm... is it because it's jus d beginning n once i am totally immersed in college it wont be d same.... nah!!! cos i am already totally immersed in college!!! so i'll be in touch with thm always!!!(hope so) some say however hard u try to keep in contact it jus doesnt happen.... except for a few frnds u become out of touch wid everyone else....bah!!!! let thm sat watever thy want to..
....watever happens..... wat i dont want to do is shrug my shoulders n say "no idea" wen after a few years somebody asks me abt a frnd of mine...
wen i move out of college n get a job(hopefully)i'll have a complete new set of frnds...woah!!!! i m not thinkin abt it ... things will get to complicated........n i like to keep things simple................

will we find sumone whom we can tell all feelings n secret..everytime we enter a new realm... btw it's d opposite for me.... will my school frnds find suomone whom thy can tell all their feelings n give me a break(thnkfully i still havent become the soul n sole confidant of anybody in college)jus kddin... consultancy open 24x7for my frnds... subtractin d sleepin n eatin hours of course!!!!

i dont think abt d future at all but sometmes i do get into the will.. what ..how.. who.. why? phase....this is one of thm....
above all the problem is all the questions tht come to my mind are unanswerable... thy have no answers!!!! i wonder how i manage to get myself into such pitiable conditions!!!!