GROWING UP

In primary school in every standard we were made to do a assignment on 'myself'.... we used to write the usaul stuff wich began 'my name is......' n so on it went..... we also had teachers talking about growing up n stuff. That 'growing up' is not what this 'growing up' is................ a couple of months into college n i realised tht there is a different kind of growing up..... tht wich has to be quick n it's not natural... it's we who have to control it.............
after class 12.... life changes in a matter of 3 months... these 3 months are not for transition or anything .... thy r jus there for us to hang around... eat n sleep........ but wen these 3 months end n we get into college tht is wen a certain 'growth' is expected of us....
3 months before we were in school..... our behaviour guided by a set of rules(only technically) every minute in school was sheltered.the school guarded us from the real world.....and suddenly in college we are exposed to the world tht it is....... this change is so sudden frm being sheltered to being on our own........tht's not my problem... it's sumthing altogether very different....
i thot the difference between school n college wud be..... no uniform.... full on bunkin..... a level of independence....... n more fun....... but i saw one more difference.... a difference tht very loudly said "grow up baby.... its not school anymore or u are goin to become a retard".... sounds weird does it? not to me.........
i knew in college we see stuff we have never seen before... the good n d bad......
i saw the good first as everybody does........ but i never expected to see the bad so soon.......i dont knw if seeing it soon was good or bad for me...... sometimes i think it was good ..... cos it shook me out of my rosy world n i realised college is so bloody different frm school................... being in college means tht we kids have been asked grow up..... wich i stubbornly refused to n still do................
wat is it tht college is so different frm school............. the only answer i can come up with is freedom......... the freedom is almost uncontrolled in college ........... i like the freedom we get in college.... but if tht freedom leads to negativity i prefer being in school.......... i dont mind wearin uniform.... attendin classes....and doin the home work. i mite be feelin this cos i refuse to change my mindset to the required but i dont care..... i m goin to go thru college without tht supposedly required mind-set.......................i m not goin to grow up to college cos i m goin to enjoy college as i am.........cos there things in college wich are like school......... FRIENDS n the fun i have with them................