It is impossible to sum up what the last year has been like.... n yet i try.... i bother to try because i wanted to see what it feels like to have a look at the past year on d whole.....
2006-2007 i.e my year as a UG-1 student in JADAVPUR UNIVERSITY(COMP.LIT)
is 'a year tht has been':
a mindblowing experience..... got settled in there as if i was always a part of JU...everything seemed new but it didnt take much time to feel at home... n wen i say home i mean home.....the place...the teachers..the people.....the jheels...the canteens... THE LEDGE...the adda... the BBC.. everything was new but it felt as if this place is meant for me.. or i was always meant for this place!!!!!
full of interest n love for my subject.....COMPARATIVE LITERATURE.....i had taken up d subject cos i thot it was a bit different.. but its not a bit different its very different....... if i want i cud call the MOON the SUN... all i needed was to justify myself..... it let's me be me....
characterised by changes... a change is always welcum... but a change soooooooooo big.... so sudden.... so drastic....being the person i m i took the change in my stride n it didnt bother me much...... most of d cahnges have been good... but still i wud do anything to go back to school....
a year of separation..... separation from school.... from friends...... from school uniforms...from the excitement of bunking n breakin rules....from punishments suitable to be given to a nursery kid..... separation from a life where i did not need to worry abt the outside world.... a separation from the portals of CARMEL....
a year tht strenghtened by belief tht physical separation does not affect mental closeness much..... i havent experienced school life since a year...but still wen i talk of school i feel i was there yesterday.... wen i meet up wid school frnds it feels as if i am talkin to thm durin lunch break!!! i cannot go to my everyday assemblies now...but i still stay "amen"..... i may not be in a safety of the portals of CARMEL anymore.... but i carry wid me the treasure chest of values tht it gave me...i may not get to celebrate Christmas wid all tht excitement n fanfare.... but i still sing my carols... i still believe in SANTA!!!!
a year tht brought out the part of me which wud never have come out in school....people mite call it a change in me.. but i knw it is not.... i am the same old me..
most importantly the year of the relationship i consider the strongest...most beautiful n wonderful of all... FRIENDSHIP...... wat kind of of friends wud i have... will thy be like my school frnds or will thy be different... will i be in touch wid my school.... n now i think... why did i even ask such questions......i m still in damn good touch wid my school frnds.....we may not meet for a long time ... but i knw wat thy r upto n thy knw wat i am upto.....
n now for my crazy wacked bunch of friends in JU......now i can say i have experinced wat unity in diversity is........differents schools..differents thoughts... differents talents... different qualities n yet together(i cant say different cultures.... cos i n a couple others only fall in d 'different culture' group).
from the first day of first year to last day of first year i have been making frnds...... not all have stayed on.. i wish thy had... n still somewhere in my heart wish thy come back.......n if i start writing abt the ones who stayed on and ones who joined in....i will not stop(do i stop once i start????)...... oh my!!!! how i love the GUYS n yes obviously the girls tooo.... hehe.... how i love these FRIENDS of MINE!!!
and this reminds me tht this year has been a year of lot of other things but i think i better not talk abt thm otherwise i wud have have SHIV SENA ...RSS n THE INDIAN JUDICIARY running after me......WAISE SAMAJHDAR KO ISHARA KAFI HAIN...heheeheee.....
however vaguely vaguest decription this mite be... but this wat the last year has been for me..... juniors ask me which college shud i go to... ask me are admission forms being given in JU... wat is the cut -off.......n i realise....a year has indeed passed by..... from being a pampered first year.... i m goin to be a swinging second year...... all my friends are very excited abt the first years comin in but i m not.... i want to be a first year forever........
characterised by changes... a change is always welcum... but a change soooooooooo big.... so sudden.... so drastic....being the person i m i took the change in my stride n it didnt bother me much...... most of d cahnges have been good... but still i wud do anything to go back to school....
a year of separation..... separation from school.... from friends...... from school uniforms...from the excitement of bunking n breakin rules....from punishments suitable to be given to a nursery kid..... separation from a life where i did not need to worry abt the outside world.... a separation from the portals of CARMEL....
a year tht strenghtened by belief tht physical separation does not affect mental closeness much..... i havent experienced school life since a year...but still wen i talk of school i feel i was there yesterday.... wen i meet up wid school frnds it feels as if i am talkin to thm durin lunch break!!! i cannot go to my everyday assemblies now...but i still stay "amen"..... i may not be in a safety of the portals of CARMEL anymore.... but i carry wid me the treasure chest of values tht it gave me...i may not get to celebrate Christmas wid all tht excitement n fanfare.... but i still sing my carols... i still believe in SANTA!!!!
a year tht brought out the part of me which wud never have come out in school....people mite call it a change in me.. but i knw it is not.... i am the same old me..
most importantly the year of the relationship i consider the strongest...most beautiful n wonderful of all... FRIENDSHIP...... wat kind of of friends wud i have... will thy be like my school frnds or will thy be different... will i be in touch wid my school.... n now i think... why did i even ask such questions......i m still in damn good touch wid my school frnds.....we may not meet for a long time ... but i knw wat thy r upto n thy knw wat i am upto.....
n now for my crazy wacked bunch of friends in JU......now i can say i have experinced wat unity in diversity is........differents schools..differents thoughts... differents talents... different qualities n yet together(i cant say different cultures.... cos i n a couple others only fall in d 'different culture' group).
from the first day of first year to last day of first year i have been making frnds...... not all have stayed on.. i wish thy had... n still somewhere in my heart wish thy come back.......n if i start writing abt the ones who stayed on and ones who joined in....i will not stop(do i stop once i start????)...... oh my!!!! how i love the GUYS n yes obviously the girls tooo.... hehe.... how i love these FRIENDS of MINE!!!
and this reminds me tht this year has been a year of lot of other things but i think i better not talk abt thm otherwise i wud have have SHIV SENA ...RSS n THE INDIAN JUDICIARY running after me......WAISE SAMAJHDAR KO ISHARA KAFI HAIN...heheeheee.....
however vaguely vaguest decription this mite be... but this wat the last year has been for me..... juniors ask me which college shud i go to... ask me are admission forms being given in JU... wat is the cut -off.......n i realise....a year has indeed passed by..... from being a pampered first year.... i m goin to be a swinging second year...... all my friends are very excited abt the first years comin in but i m not.... i want to be a first year forever........
5 comments:
Yet another attempt to hold on to a Moment...to a particular Phase...but Time - the greatest enemy of Man...it never Stops. Only those few who care to sail along with Time...be the 'Riders on the Storm'...they survive and live Life to the Fullest. They have not any grudges, nor do they merely accept every thing that comes their way - They choose to enjoy Life instead, and most importantly, Know how to. M glad U r one of Them.God bless You.:)
I know what you meant by wishing that you could continue to be a fresher...Even I wish i could hold onto my 1st year at college..it has been so special...in so many ways...This post kinda brought back another memory...Last year...when we had given our board exams and da separation seemed imminent and yet this very fact hadnt quite sunk into us all..i had cribbed one whole week as to why we did not have class 13 and class 14....for i was a lil apprehensive to step out and experience a new life that awaited me...perhaps more scared than excited at facing the BIG BAD WORLD...But now one year through my college life..i knw the World isnt all dat Bad...But it sure is Big...I guess u jst hv 2 cultivate the urge in you to step out, to dare to try out something new..We can all stay within the cosy confines and the safety of the known world but then its also a whole lot of fun to taste the uncertain and the unknown too,isn't it???Look what a treasure you hv acquired at JU by daring to move on..(ok i knw..i hv given too mch of gyaan...guess i should stop here...lol...)
@sunshine gal
certainly the world isnt bad... but big yes!!!! n wat we have acquired at JU is "priceless"(does tht ring a bell... if not try thinkin mastercard) hehe
@jijo
attempt to hold on to a moment so tht wen my memory fails me due to old age..... i atleast can relive thru the post(i.e if the blog is still arnd..)hehe
Totally....I completely agree with you....Rock on..
you just spoke of everything that i wanted to write....amazing girl....your account of your past and present is just awesome...and in ur typical "khyati way" you have engraved your memories to perfect....
cheerio!!
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