ME AND MY FRIENDS!!!!

Many a times i wonder if i'll get to see the frnds i have now after 10 years.... i wonder will they know wen i die....i wonder will i knw wen they die....weird wondering...aftr all tht's my wondering!!!
this wondering was set in motion by my dad n his friends... i was jus thinkin abt their frienship all these years..... in those days there were not many schools or colleges... n most of gujaratis went to one school i.e J.J Ajmera and one college i.e Bhawanipur college... unlike us my dad had almost the same set of frnds thru out school n college life!!! n now i guess all frnds get together only once in a year... not tht thy r not frnds anymore jus tht everyone's busy cant blame thm...it took a lot of hard work in those days n even now it's hard work....wenever thy meet there bonding is amzin to watch... it seems as if thy r college goers....
even if my dad meets one of his friends while we are out or something.. thy cant stop talkin.....
BUT tht is our DAD's generation............ today the the world is more accessible......going abroad to study is so common....
today i m in contact wid my school frnds.... will i be in contact with thm after a few years... n same for my college frnds...even if i am in contact will tht bond still be the same......idiotic questions thy seem to me yet provocative........
it is said tht even if ppl are seven seas apart.. a relationship can be maintained if thy want to...........does tht mean (god forbid) if i lose contact wid a frnd it was becos i never wanted to keep in touch....i say 'BULL SHIT' why the hell wudn't i want to keep in touch wid my frnds...
quite a few of my frnds have gone out of calcutta to study... i m still in touch wid thm... is it because it's jus d beginning n once i am totally immersed in college it wont be d same.... nah!!! cos i am already totally immersed in college!!! so i'll be in touch with thm always!!!(hope so) some say however hard u try to keep in contact it jus doesnt happen.... except for a few frnds u become out of touch wid everyone else....bah!!!! let thm sat watever thy want to..
....watever happens..... wat i dont want to do is shrug my shoulders n say "no idea" wen after a few years somebody asks me abt a frnd of mine...
wen i move out of college n get a job(hopefully)i'll have a complete new set of frnds...woah!!!! i m not thinkin abt it ... things will get to complicated........n i like to keep things simple................

will we find sumone whom we can tell all feelings n secret..everytime we enter a new realm... btw it's d opposite for me.... will my school frnds find suomone whom thy can tell all their feelings n give me a break(thnkfully i still havent become the soul n sole confidant of anybody in college)jus kddin... consultancy open 24x7for my frnds... subtractin d sleepin n eatin hours of course!!!!

i dont think abt d future at all but sometmes i do get into the will.. what ..how.. who.. why? phase....this is one of thm....
above all the problem is all the questions tht come to my mind are unanswerable... thy have no answers!!!! i wonder how i manage to get myself into such pitiable conditions!!!!